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The doc came out and talked to me... the tumor is quite a bit bigger, and the radiation planning will have to be re-done in two weeks, since the tumor size will shrink considerably after the treatments start.

But the treatments won't start for a week, dammit.

The trip to the hospital today was really hard on Karen, she's been mostly sleeping since then.

The one note of good news is that we did get the papers signed so that the house can close tomorrow, and we will wind up getting a small check.

That takes a load off of Karen's' mind, and mine, too.

And I need to remind myself to call the power and the gas people tomorrow and have the read the meters for the last time.

The boys left around noon, after a great hassle... Tyler had gone to KC Tuesday night to visit a friend... and brought the friend back home with him... he'll be living, temporarily, with Tyler in Huntsville.

But he had all of his stuff crammed into Tylers' car... so there wasn't room for three people and their stuff. JD was quite incensedd, and decided to rent a car.

So I took JD off to the car rental place... and they didn't do one-way rentals. Ditto the next four places.

We finally went to Avis, and they had an SUV that they could rent to him. A really nice vehicle, but an SUV? With gas prices as high as they are? I just talked to him a few minutes ago... $60 for a fillup, he said. And he was only about to the OK/Texas border.

It did me so much good to have the boys here, they are so helpful and so supportive. And I so miss them when they leave, of course.

They do plan on coming back for Karen's family reunion on June 22nd.

Back to the bad news... Karen's fatigue. The poor woman is too tired to do anything, and she has no desire to eat. I've been making her drink a coupla Ensures every day, but that's not enough to feed both her and the tumor.

And she's coughing, and she won't take any more of the MS... she hates it. I'm gonna persuade her to take a much smaller dosage, I hope that it'll work that way. I don't know what else to do....

"I don't know what else to do" seems to be the theme around here lately, goddammit.

O'yeah... the picture is fuzzy for a reason. And the haiku hasn't changed... for a reason.

Fuck cancer. Just fuck it.