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In fact, it's worse than it was yesterday... a lot more like it was Friday. I'm just barely able to move around, and finally must concede that risers on toilet seats aren't there just for fun.

And I'm doing a little cautious ODing on the drugs, since they don't seem to be working... and even at that, they don't seem to be working.

And thinking about my back dominates every minute... if I let my guard down, I'll do something stupid and hurt it even more. Yeah, that's for certain... it takes a while to get used to living with a bad back.

15:06...
My doc's office finally called back, I've got an appointment at 08:45 in the morning. I don't really know what he can do for, though, I've already got the best drugs on board and it ain't workin'....

Although there are maybe some better drugs that I don't know about? I certainly hope so... that would be a nice surprise.

Heh, I just thought of something... I haven't been thinking about smoking at all since my back started bothering me. What's it been, about a month already?

Maybe, but who's counting any more?

Dammit, I was gonna say something very kind about a singer who died a coupla days ago, but I can't remember his name. O'well, I don't have to know his name to say something nice, do I? Hey, Buddy, whoever you are, I'll miss you, you sang some good tunes!

O'yeah, Gene Pitney... Town without Pity was my very favorite although he had a lot more that he sang and a few really good ones that he wrote and other people sang....

And it's only 15:30 and I need to take a nap, at the very least... I'll probably be back

17:13...
Yeah, back, but with nothing interesting to say, I'm afraid.

Just some speculation about tomorrow; see the doc at 08:45, he'll probably recommend a CT and send me to an orthopedic surgeon, or maybe the other way around. Probably wants an MRI but that ain't gonna happen, of course, with Thor residing in my chest.

But I think that the final diagnosis will be, as always... "Fat and outta shape".

And I'm gonna do something about that, I have to.

This has definitely been the most pain that I've ever been in, on a scale of one to ten, when the spasms hit it's at least a nine, if not a ten. And I really don't want to do this any more, where every move I make might potentially cause me a great deal of pain.

So... I gotta lose weight and get in shape. And it's gotta be a conscious, consistent effort. Yeah, that's what I always start off saying, ain't it?

I've said that many times about smoking, too... and this last time I made it work... I can make this work, too.