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And I'm only halfway into genesis, into all of the sons of ... eh... what's his name, the guy that built the boat... Yeah, Noah. And it keeps getting funnier, even than the garden of eden shit, heh.

There's a reason why I only read the xian bible every ten years or so... my brain just won't stand for it.

Amazingly, the Koran, from what I have seen of it, amkes more sense. The Koran pretty well delineates Hell, which the xians consistently decline to do.

"Makes more sense" does not mean that it makes sense, of course... it just makes More sense than the xian take on the subject.

And the xian take on the subject makes no sense at all.

The whole thing, though, from the xian perspective, is that god made us, and we cannot see him or hear him or understand him but we must obey him or we will burn forever in hell.

And this is fact, pure and simple, and there are popes and preachers and saints and kings who will attest to this.

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The theme: One has to smoke.

The plot:

One has to buy only one cigar.

One can smoke this cigar in private, and nobody will know.

The plot was conceived as I was going to sleep last night. Upon awakening, I remembered it, and yes, that is what woulld happen. I would get off work at 16:30 and go and buy one cigar, and take it over to the old house, and go out into the shed and smoke it.

I savored this plot all day, yes I did. The center of everything that happened today was the buying of the single cigar.

And it a was a long day, and a hard day, and I was very tired when I clocked out at 16:45...

And I very definitely did not buy a cigar.

I very definitely did, however, buy a pint of whiskey.

Which really doesn't make me want to not smoke... but it does make me realize the futility of it.

I cannot smoke once and not think that it's OK to smoke again.

It's not OK to smoke, period.

And yeah, it hurts to not smoke.

And it hurts to die...

And it hurts to not die....

And it hurts to live....

So... what's your point? I'm doing the best that I can.

Eh.. sometimes... I wish that I would have grown up.

But mostly, I'm glad that I didn't.

And generally, I'm happy being who I am....