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Went to bed about 20:10 or something like that, and Karen gave me a nice rub and I thought that I would go right to sleep... but instead, I remained in that weird pre-sleep hypnotic state until after 10:30... and then I had weird, vivid dreams, y'know, where you tell yourself in the dream, "I'll never forget this, this is the most wonderful thing that I have ever dreamt!" and you might even think the same thing as you're waking up, too.

But it never works, it's always forgotten....

And maybe it's better that way.

Because, well, if it was that great, you *would* remember? So it's probably not that great, it's just stupid. And it's permissible to forget stupid dreams, right?

Anyways, that hypnotic state is cool.

I did get up on time today, and I went by Walgreens to pick up some prescriptions and some snacks, today was snack day because our tech-in-trainings' last day was today. So today was not a great day for eating for me, not if I want to avoid gaining weight.

And I'm really afraid of that... last time that I quit smoking I gained sixty pounds in three months and pushed myself into my semi-almost-kinda-diabetic situation.

And yeah, I know, I'm really a diabetic, but I have been controlling it well with my diet, and if I screw up and gain weight and have to go on meds for it, well, that seems to start a downward spiral from what I've seen.

Eight days without smoking. I am surprising myself, and I'm pleased about that.

Our computer system went to its' knees around noonish, and one of the docs started going off at me about it and I stopped him and told him that my supervisor would call him and walked out.

He wasn't really going off at me, I just happened to be there, and my supervisor gets paid to handle that kinda shit, while I don't. She must have done her job well, 'cause I did a procedure with him a little later and he was nice as pie.

six more years, heh.

Karen has become acquainted with the conspiracy rumors of nine-eleven, that it was set up by the VP and Bush... she was horrified. Charlie Sheen was the one who's been talking about it lately on TV, but it's been on the web since, huh, nine-twelve probably.

Men who seek power tend to do horrible things... whatever it takes to get that power. Lie, kill, break laws, bribe, cheat... no, I don't really believe that Cheney and Bush got bin laden to get his men to fly those planes... but I can see how someone could believe that. It would certainly explain OBL still being free and alive.

But really, the question becomes: would Bush and Cheney have done that, knowing that it would get them the concessions from the american people to run rough-shod over the constitution, start a war on false premises and do the reverse robin-hood with taxes?

My answer will surprise nobody; of course they would have. They're politicians, they love power, they will do anything, absolutely anything, to get it. The sacrifice of 3000 people would be nothing to them, in spite of their stated committment to "compassionate conservatism".

However, it more likely that they just shrewdly used the opportunity to further themselves in their quest for the ultimate power... the power to control the minds of america.

And they had that, for a while, but they're losing it, and they know it.

What they need is another rallying point, another disaster but one, unlike Katrina, where they might be able to shine again. Yep, another nine-one-one.

I just hope that they don't figger this out before the elections in November...

And I hope that I'm wrong about their motives... I would love to be wrong.

But I do have this knack of being right about these things.