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And I even had it plugged into my PDA.

On my "today" page, down at the bottom, I have a link that says, "How many days has nilknarf been on-line?" and you click it and it tells you.

And yesterday, it said, "3,333". And I missed it... and so did you, most likely.

Yeah, it's silly, but it's a neat number. 4,444 is a long ways away.

In other news... another sober day.

I have been asked why I don't go to AA... and I give the simple answer... they don't really have anything for an atheist. And they're really irritating with their god talk.

But... I'm not a joiner. Neither am I an asunderer... a point in my favor, maybe.

Anyway, the self-righteousness of an ex-abuser (pretty much fully justified, in my opinion) combined with the self-righteousness of a born-again xian... I just can't stomach that. Sorry, I just can't do it.

So... I have to do it my way... the hard way. The way I did it before... the way that almost worked.

And it yet other news... we were a tech short today. And it was fairly busy, and it got even busier as the day progressed. I stayed over more than an hour... no big deal, but still....

I did spent the AM on the console, though, and I spent all day there yesterday, so my legs are really hurting as much as they might. Tomorrow I'm in the scan room, and it promises to be a busy day even if we're fully staffed, and hellacious if we're not.

And the last two mornings, about 03:00... I've woken up after having some of the most lucid nightmares that I've ever had. I think that it's the Ambien... but it's really weird.

The one this morning... I was sure that I would remember everything... was watching this guy break into people's houses and kill them... and then write about it. And he assured me that the files would be on my computer when I woke up....

I haven't bothered to look yet... kinda afraid to, y'know?

I need to get a haircut and a shower and go to bed, have some more of those dreams, heh.

"If God only exists in the gaps in our knowledge, why not make lots of room for him by staying as ignorant as possible?"

--Don Baker on the atheist list at yahoo