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Not that we had that many patients; it's just that I spent the day standing... when I wasn't in the bathroom.

Cramps like I haven't had for ages... and chills and sweats.

Couldn't eat lunch, even. 'Fraid that I'd just throw it up. Didn't want to waste the money or the effort.

Am I getting the flu or something like that?

Or is it simply alcohol deprivation?

Heh, that's not simple... I'm pretty much going crazy here.

My mind is going six directions at once, and my body is cycling between mania and not wanting to move at all.

I seem to remember this from 1983, come to think of it.

I remember taking three days off, spent in a mostly-manic state.

I don't remember the cramps and diarrhea, though. But I was much younger then, heh.

Philosophically, though, I'm doing plenty well. No hallucinations or anything like that... none of the symptoms that I see with the old drunks that are drying out, coming in to the ER in the middle of the night....

I did manage to get some drugs that are helping, too.

And I'm really feeling a lot better about myself. I'm about 95% positive that I can do this. And I don't know why that other 5% is in there... but it is.

I guess it's there 'cause I don't want to seem, or be, too cocky.

But this will be the last time that I have to do this.

And on the way home tonight, I bought what I intend to be my last box of cigars.

Why not get it all over and done with at once?

In other news,... the pope is still dead. Pretty good odds that he'll stay that way. And I think that it's hilarious that people want to make him a saint.

In fact, the whole idea of saints is pretty hilarious, right up there with god.

It amazes me that people can be so wholly hookwinked, and that any church has survived the laughter... O'right, they survive 'cause they get rid of the people who laugh at them, how silly of me to forget.

But I'm not gonna go on a rant tonight, no I'm not. For one thing, I'm sleepy. For another thing, I've said it all already, and for another thing, google will get you everything that anybody's said....

And it's 23:18, and I needs me some sleep.