We had a pretty good rainstorm pass about 04:00, woke me up a little bit, but not for long. I think there were just a coupla peals of thunder, then just rain.

And the boys and I just screwed around today, working on music stuff and computers. Very enjoyable, I love being with them, I just wished that it could happen more often. And watching JD and Tyler together made me wish that I could be much closer geographically to brother Dan. And Mom, too, for that matter.

I just want to have everyone that I love close. Yeah, just for my own convenience, ain't that selfish of me?

Annette and the boys will leave early in the morning. I'm holding off being sad until they're gone.

Karen and Annette took Brian over to Lawrence today to spend some time with his mother. They also took Patrick and Lacee with them, then spent the afternoon shopping over there, where the shopping scene is quite a bit different than Topeka.

By the time they got back, Annette was even firmer, that's if possible, in her resolve to not have kids.

And JD feels the same way, of course, or they wouldn't still be together.

And I don't really know how to feel about that. In a way, I would like to see both JD and Tyler have kids, 'cause I'm selfish. I want to enjoy grandkids without having any of the responsibility. And JD and Annette don't want to have kids for the same reason... they're selfish, and readily admit it. They want to live their lives unburdened, and I can really identify with that, too.

And they appreciate the fact that I *did* want to have kids, at one time, and that having them was and continues to be a very satisfying thing for me.

Today's picture is of the three of us, Tyler on my right, me, then JD on my left. Quite a good-lookin' trio, heh? The Nilknarf Trio.

In spite of a lack of sleep, I do seem to be feeling better. Today it was 17:00 before my arm started hurting, and a lot of the edema is gone from around the defibrillator, I can feel the shape pretty readily. I showed it to Tyler today and made him touch it and he pretty much squicked out, bless his little pea-pickin' heart.

And hell, it's after 23:00 now, and time to get some sleep.