So, it's my night to be philosophical, and I will. Don't worry, it won't take long. I have figgered out that I'm a neo-nihilist. Yeah, that's a word that I made up. Instead of the old nihilist idea that nothing can be known for sure, my idea is that nothing really matters for sure. Long-term and on the grand scale, of course... stuff will always matter to us individual humans, that's the way that we're made. The trouble with neo-nihilism is that, once that you've made the claim that nothing matters... you have nothing left to say. Sure, you can go on to explain *why* nothing matters, just to convince people... but that really doesn't matter. The only reason that you would want to do something like that is to make a buck, after all. And that *would* matter to you as an individual. Bucks are nice, I've heard. But, in a thousand years? No one will know, no one will care, if there is even an earth at that time. So neo-nihilism is a convuluted form of hedonism, I guess. I would like to be considered a very humane neo-nihilist, hedonistic in the fact that I only want happiness for myself, but in order for me to be happy I have to make other people happy, or at least better off in some way. My motives are hedonistic, you see, it's all about me me me me me. Enough of these maudlin mental meanderings, time for a gut check. I got a call today from my recruiter. He has an assignment for me, if I want it. He called at work and asked me to call him when I got home, so I did. The job is in KC MO at the VA hospital. It's on the east side of KC, and Topeka is on the west, it's about 75 miles one way. More of a commute than I'm willing to do. It would be 8 to 16:30, M-F, no call, no weekends. There would be a vehicle, housing and food allowance and about a 20% hourly increase from what I'm making now. All in all, I would pretty much break even... which is not really what I had in mind. The recruiter is supposed to call me back tomorrow, and I'll do some negotiating, see what happens. Another catch is that the hospital is working on a two-week contract, and they have been extending that, but there's no guarantee that they will continue doing that, and I really need more assurance that I will be able to meet the mortgage payment... the recruiter is working on that aspect of it. Anyways... It wasn't a bad day for a Monday, pretty laid-back. Karen was off today, she needed a rest after a weekend with the grandkids. I got to work on time and got off on time. I plan on going to sleep early tonight, I feel like I'm getting a cold, I've felt that way on and off for about three weeks, without any worstening of my symptoms, so I don't really know what's going on.