I awoke this morning to the sound of the phone ringing. I picked it up at the same time that I saw the clock. 09:16. Shit.
I just hate getting to work late. Hate it, hate it, hate it. Nothing ever goes right when that happens. And, true to form, it was a pretty crummy day. Although since yesterday, crummy is relative. I did stay up too late last night, watching TV. One segment in particular got to me... a scene of two women watching someone jump out of the burning WTC. That, and the one where the second plane came in over the park and crashed into the second building. I think that it was the screams. I am naturally sickened by the "Prayer Vigils" that seem to be happening everywhere. I want to scream, "Where was this god of yours when this was happening?" As I mentioned yesterday, these suiciders believe that their god is going to give them everlasting life and all sorts of goodies... the more heathens that they take with them, the more goodies they'll get. Incidentally, *heathens* are xians, not people like me, whom the xians consider heathen. I don't know what an islamic would consider me, or if they would even bother to classify us atheists. Evil exists only in the minds of men... the world, the universe itself is pitiless and absolutely uncaring. We are totally insignificant except for in our own eyes, and many people just quite simply can't accept that. I don't really have a problem with that fact myself... I think that just me thinking that I'm significant is just dandy, I don't really need for someone else to think that I am to make me happy. I also think that when I'm dead, I'm dead, that's all there is to it. I don't need anything more than this life right here, right now. I really do wish that my internet cable service was more reliable, though. Once again, no internet. I've called them, and they should be out tomorrow night between 17:30 and 20:00. It will have fixed itself by then, of course... it always does, dammit. Still watching the damned TV tonight... Bush saying something like, "terrorists... people who don't share the values that we have..." when he was speaking at the pentagon. I don't really think that he meant what he said, but I'm not really sure. His command of the english language is admittedly shaky, but I'm not really sure that he doesn't equate terrorism with, essentially, cultures that he doesn't understand. I think that the only culture that he does understand, and that only with intensive coaching, is that of the WASP. Maybe I'm a little bit sensitive to a Bush talking about values... daddy Bush didn't think that atheists should be citizens, for instance, and I have been given no reason to believe that Baby Bush thinks differently. Hmmm... now they're evacuating the Empire State Building. No, there will be no end, no end to this. No more safety in these United States. So, it's past my bedtime, but here I am anyway... I cut out all of the TVs on the cable, all that's here is my modem, and it seems to be doing fine. I'm gonna have to re-do it before I go to bed, though, and after I upload this. Which better be pretty quick, 'cause I don't want to oversleep two days in a row now, do I?