So, it's goodby, July, I hardly did know ya'... the months, they... well damn 'em, the days... the years... all them, it's a conspiracy, they all want to fly away and I can't keep 'em in the cages and... well, damn! Well, I'd really feel bad if this was just happening to me, but no, it's happening to everybody, I'm just the only one that can see it happening, no I'm not, everyone can, they are averting their eyes and their minds and ignoring it all hoping that it will all go away and by golly it will but when it's gone they won't know it they've missed it they weren't paying attention at all. The price that I pay for paying attention is way way more than what everyone else pays for not paying attention, is that fair or what? No, I don't expect fair, just logic. Logic says that what will be is what is and what is... is. Or maybe that's not really logic maybe it's... just kinda crazy. But crazy in a nice way, not crazy with sharp teeth and jaw muscles like knotted hawsers and intestines like boa constrictors. O'yeah, it was another shitty day, metaphorically speaking this time. Karen and I went to the Sears place, and they wouldn't even look at the Subaru, they just do tires and batteries... the *easy* profitable stuff. So we went down to the place where we got the axles replaced several months ago, and left the guy a key and they had it towed in. Karen took me on to work then. And work wasn't bad, not too busy. A little later, karen calls, I'm supposed to call the guy back in the car shop. Bad news. The crankshaft is gone, and most of the gears are stripped out. I had him check prices for a used motor... about two grand. So I stalled him until tomorrow, and looked up the blue book price of the damned thing... $2400. Not hardly worth it, dammit. So it's off to the junk pile with it. And we need to get another vehicle. I hate buying cars, I always feel like I'm getting screwed... and I'm always right. On the other hand, I always get screwed when I get rid of a car, too. Just can't win with the goddamned things. I kinda would like to get another Subaru, though, it was a pretty reliable little car until this happened. I've got to go in early tomorrow for a mandatory meeting...organizational responsibility program, I think that it's called. We (the hospital) got our wrists slapped a year or so ago by the government for making a few mistakes on some coding, like $20,000 worth... so we got fined like $350,000... the hospital doesn't want it to happen again. I guess that I can understand that... Another picture of Brian today, he got a haircut... So, it's past 22:00 and I need to get to bed now...
I got swung over to diagnostic to fill in and that kinda sucked... I was supposed to be running the desk, and I'm not really into a supervisory mode lately... if I really ever was. But I got by OK, I guess. As soon as I could, I was back in CT.