I just don't fucking know.

Horrible.

I'm not going to whine about how the world is changing... lunacy has been a major part of the human psyche forever.

But Yesterday I said, "I don't think that it could happen here, in happy America..." and then it did. No, not exactly the same... but equally horrible.

Adolescence is a terrible time for kids... and these were kids... because kids are horribly cruel to other kids. I remember well being made fun of in junior high and high school... for various reasons, none of which would bother me today, thirty-some years later. But at the time they bothered me a lot.

Never once did I think of getting even with all of those kids by killing them. Or even breaking their faces. I got even with them by ignoring them to the best of my ability.

I said that the insults and humiliation bothered me a lot... but not for long. Because someone explained to me what was going on. Because I didn't need to worry about their opinions, mine was the only one that really mattered.

These kids needed someone like that, and they had no one, evidently. I'm glad that I did.

Work... was OK. Busy at first, slowed down, then they got me a-running from about 04:30 on. Then I had a meeting with my supervisor that lasted about an hour. It was actually a bitch session, with me doing all of the bitching. She's a really good listener, anyway, we'll see what comes of it all.

I'd planned on staying up, then got really tired and went to bed, but I couldn't get to sleep. I'd thought about not writing today, then decided that I would, then that I wouldn't, then I decided the hell with it and got up.

Supposed to rain today, tomorrow and Friday. Probably go fishing Monday or Tuesday, depending on how things go here with the projects...

More tomorrow...