I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about which path I should walk regarding work. I finally got a chance to talk with Karen tonight about it, and she will support either decision.

As I mentioned last week, I am very much in the running for the supervisor position, and I feel that they will offer it to me this coming week.

And I've changed my mind about it.

Much of the reason that my mind has changed has come about because of one comment by our director when he told me that I'd done well with the interview. The comment was that two people (out of the four there) were... surprised... that I didn't "dress up" more for the interview.

The more I thought about this, the more it galled me.

These people would be my peers... and much of their judgement of me might be based on the way I dress.

Well, bullshit.

I know, I know.... this is they way the world is. It's probably actually surprising that all four of them didn't mention that...

But dress, in and of itself, isn't really the issue for me. Hell, I can conform if I need to. I've worn a tie before, I've worked in three-piece suits. I kinda like dressing up, in fact.

But that's not the point...It's the mind-set. The expected conformity does not just extend to dress and stop there; it saturates management people from the top down.

And it's bullshit. Yeah, again, that's the way it is... but it's bullshit.

And it's bullshit that I don't need to put up with. I don't put up with it now... and I love going to work every night. Well, mostly...

I really don't know if I could put up with it.

And it's not like I have any major targets in management. I have seen that the higher up you get, the more bullshit there is, and that pretty soon you start believing the bullshit.

I do not want to do that. No way.

So... I haven't really decided yet, but I will before Tuesday.

Later on...
I goofed off a little bit last night and paid the price. I put off my paperwork in favor of flirting with nurses, and then I had to work really hard and really fast to get it all done, 'cause I got busy. Hmmm... that'll teach me, huh?

Nah... there are some things that are worth the price. And I enjoy the people that I get to work with.

And now I have laryngitis big time, and my throat is starting to hurt... and my knee hurts, and this sounds a whole lot like whining. So I'll just go to bed, now. I start the twelve-hour nights tonight...