In the middle of the night....
Thus far, a very quiet one; I like that, and tonight I especially needed that. I got no sleep today at all... I tried for about a half-hour at 17:30 and it didn't work, so I got up and went back to the computer. Didn't accomplish anything, really, but I did ruin one of my CDRs. I do not yet know what I'm doing...
I did call Mom, though, and she sounded good. Nothing much going on in Enid, she'd been taken out twice for her birthday already and is going out again Wednesday night. She does maintain her social life!
I've been thinking recently about what makes people good, what makes people bad. This has nothing to do with religion, it has nothing to do with how much money one has, it has nothing to do with how intelligent one is or where they were born.
It has to do, quite simply, with how selfish they are.
And that has a lot to do with how they were brought up.
So, a big DUH there, huh.
But not entirely. For example... say a mother is kind and considerate of her fellow people. Everyone thinks that she's wonderful, she's always doing this and that for everyone. She has two kids. One of them thinks that the mother is wonderful and tries to emulate her. The other one thinks that the mother is stupid and that everyone takes advantage of her... and then this kid takes advantage of her too.
Now, I'll admit that this is a judgement call, and everyone might not agree with me... but I think that the first kid is good and the second one is bad.
The second kid is thinking only of itself and what it wants. It's selfish. And it will live its life being selfish. It will make friends with people that it doesn't like (naturally, because it doesn't really like anybody...) but who can do it some favors. It will marry to have money or social status and to acquire the use of a spouse. It will have kids to have someone additional to dominate.
It will die alone and unhappy... if there is any justice. And, in this case, there mostly is.
And they outnumber us... by at least ten to one. And that scares the hell outta me. And I fear for mankind... as good people always have.
And I honestly believe that I'm a good person. And I believe that you're a good person too (I'm being really generous here...) Or at least you think so. Heck, anyone with a computer is a good person, right? Anyhoo... do bad people think that they're good people, or do they think about it at all? Do they know that they're bad people? Do they even have the concept of good/bad, or do they not think in terms other than Me Me Me?
Keep in mind, the above was written when I was deprived of sleep for... 22 hours. Right now (07:45) it's been ... longer than that. 28 hours. Had to get the calculator out for that one...
I had some help last night... I'm training the tech who will be working opposite of me when I go back on seven on/seven off. It was a very slow night, and I decided to take advantage of the fact and leave a half-hour early. I very seldom get to do that...
She was very nice about it... asked me why I was waiting so long to leave...
More tomorrow...