Saturday, 20 December, 1997 16:27

This has been a pretty lazy day. Karen went to work this morning early, and I stayed in bed until about 08:00 or so, then I got up and basically did nothing for quite a while. Fiddled around on the net, tried to learn some graphics stuff with image composer, downloaded Frontier, but I haven't installed it yet...

Karen got home about 14:30, she went shopping with Kim before she came home, and she brought Lacee home with her; they've gone out to Jones for some more shopping. Don't know when they'll be back.

I've been kinda blue lately, and I can't really put my finger on why. Being slightly depressed under the circumstances is perhaps understandable, but it seems to be deeper than that, more fundamental.

What I really feel like doing is going out and getting a bottle of Jack Daniels Black. But I'm not gonna do that; I know that would leave me feeling even worse, if it left me feeling anything at all. So, anyways, that is not an option.

I'm also feeling very lonely, no matter who's around. Like, most of the time I feel that I am a unique individual, with unique talents and a unique outlook on life. And right now I just feel that I'm one of billions who have lived and died on this earth, and not a one of us really matters to anything or anybody. And if we do matter to someone, that doesn't matter anyway, because they don't matter either.

I could go on and on about this, but talking about it depresses me even more. So I'll think of something that doesn't.

The place on my neck where my mole used to reside is very sore. I can't seem to keep from messing with it, and I've probably got it infected.

My left leg seems to be getting worse by the day; now just standing for ten minutes or so makes it ache. I'm really anxious to see the ultrasound study, so I'll know what's going on there.

Well, shit, that doesn't help any.

On the good side... my cough is definitely better.

I've been having a tough time lately remembering to take my pills. I take a bunch of pills every day, and I don't really mind doing it, but when I'm off it just seems like a lot of trouble to do it. So, I just now took my morning pills. I need to get more of a routine going on my days off.

Speaking of which, I won't start my four-day on schedule until the middle of January, so I've really got one more full rotation to go.

O'yeah, you probably noticed the new logo...

Enough for now...

Well, shit. It appears that the server for KSpress is down again. They were also down last night, didn't come up until almost 09:00. I think that this page might get moved to some paid web space before too long, and I will change service providers at the same time.

I don't think that I'm getting mail, either. O'wait, it's Saturday Night! People are out partying, etc. and I'm the only one sitting in front of a monitor, clicking the "send and Receive" button every five minutes...

This isn't helping my mood any at all, I must say.