Thursday, 18 December, 1997 21:08

It's been a productive day, kinda. Kinda because I feel like I got a lot done, but I don't really feel very good about it. Like I should've gotten more done, or something.

I finally got the gutters cleaned out and all of the leaves off of the decks; it was a beautiful day, probably got up close to 60F with the sun shining. I used the power washer to move the leaves around. I get a kick out of using that thing, you know how power tools turn some people on? Well, the power washer makes cleaning almost effortless, and that's the way that I like for things to be... effortless. It probably took twice as long as doing it manually would have, but all I really had to do was stand there and direct the stream.

Karen has been kind of grinchy all day, I don't know why and she doesn't know why either, she just IS, that's all.

Kim spent the day with us, recuperating. She's doing pretty good, all things considered. Karen got the xmas tree all done, with the help of the grandkids, and tomorrow I will put up the outdoor lights. Yeah, it goes against my nature, but what must be done must be done.

Shit, I might even get some xmas spirit yet!

I didn't mention the worst case scenario re:my femoral blockages. I don't really like thinking about it.. but there is a possibility that I will have to have my lower aorta replaced, along with the femorals. This is a pretty extensive surgical procedure, and one that I would like to avoid.

I am being unduly pessimistic here, but I find that it's easier for me to deal with stuff like this by anticipating the worst and hoping for the best... it makes it really hard for me to be surprised or discouraged about the outcome.