04:25 Monday 15 November 1997

This was almost another DDS (Didn't do shit) night - my fifth in a row. I am amazed, as usual, at my good fortune. I did do a few patients, but everything happened sequentially and not concurrently. At this pace, I could work ten nights in a row...

Ah, but there's the kicker... this pace won't continue. I have two more nights on this rotation, and then I think that we start the new plan next week. So, instead of coming back Wednesday night, I'll come back on Tuesday night.

I woke up at 15:07 today... and I remembered that the Chief's game started at 15:00. I thought about getting up, then decided against it. Two minutes later I decided that, yeah, I was gonna get up and watch the game. So I did, and it was a pretty good game. Was it worth an extra two hours of sleep? That I'm not really sure about.

I'm in trouble with Karen again, and it has lead me to formulate a policy that will cover this and all other circumstances: I will write about the things and people that affect me and my life. If you don't want me to write about something that you did or said, you have two choices: don't do or say it, or don't let me find out that you did or said it.

I'm not out to spread dirt about anyone, but I'm here to tell about my life. I will talk about the people that I love, and the people that I respect, the things that happen to me and the things that happen to people that I love and respect. And I will talk about people that I don't love, or respect, and how they touch the lives of the people that I do love and respect and myself.

Don't think that I'm gonna tell all here.... because I won't. I do and will continue to respect confidences; when someone asks me not to mention something because someone will be hurt by that something, I will not publish that here. I reserve the right to publish it in the future, however, when the issue is over and done with.

And I will consistently refuse any sort of dishonesty. Once again, I might not tell the whole story, but what you see here will be the truth as I know it. And I might not always be right with my opinions, but I will publish those here, too, because they are my opinions, and this journal is a vehicle for my life, including my opinions.

Yeah, all of this is pretty vague. You want to know what I wrote? It seems to be a perfectly innocent statement of fact, but there are reams of material concealed within just a few words. And when the time is right, all (well, at least some of it) will be revealed to you. In good time. In good time.

And I am anxiously awaiting that time.

Until tomorrow...