Friday, 12 December, 1997 07:29

In the middle of the night....

All is quiet in Topeka.

The Emergency department is absolutely devoid of patients; all of my paperwork is done; I'm listening to the sounds of the big bands from the 40s and 50s. All is right with the world.

Except for the fact that there is nothing that I want to write about... nothing of interest, anyway. I'm tired and sleepy, in spite of eight hours of sleep today. And I get tired of writing about how tired I am. Kim is still not feeling well, so she and the grandkids were at the house when I woke up. Lacee and Packy were taking turns... good kid, bad kid. Back and forth. I screwed around on the net longer than I should've, and asked Karen to make me a sandwich while I took a shower, and I barely made it to work on time.

I think that the caffeine is hitting me now... I don't feel any more awake, really, but I do have some nervous energy building up. I feel like writing something wonderful... I wonder what that would be? I feel like accomplishing something, but there is really nothing around here that I want to accomplish. I would feel the same way if I were home, I'm afraid. Energy and nothing constructive to do with it.

I read in Kymm's journal yesterday that her IQ score was four points below that of Melody of Fresh Little Puddles. So... I'm smarter'n Kymm! (Kymm, if you happen to read this, I will concede that you are both better-looking and more charming than I am....)But. as I remember my old dad sayin'..."If you're so damned smart, why ain't you rich?"

I used to think that being smart was, by and in itself, meaningful and useful. I no longer think that, though. The world has taught me that <cynicism>honesty, integrity and love of your fellow-man</cynicism> are the only meaningful goals to strive for.

Sorry, I just couldn't help myself.

I'm really looking forward to my new schedule. I think the 7-on 7-off has been wearing me down, plus I start to get bored during the seven off. Maybe this will work out to be better all the way around.

More tomorrow....