I got up late today.

Very late.

It was 16:45 when I got awake. I started catching up on journals last night, and I didn't get to sleep until after 04:00; so I got twelve hours of sleep. That sucks, because I did want to go fishing today. Tyler got up about 13:00 and decided to let me sleep, or decided that it would be too much trouble to wake me up, anyway. He got to sleep about 01:00.

Keith Blackwell's List 'O Atheists is the Überatheist site of the week. Keith has done a lot of work with his Net Atheist list, and I really appreciate his links. Check a few of them out...
The Überatheist site of the week is getting a lot more traffic that I expected to get initially. I'm not inundated by any means, however.

Satanism. What a great religion! You fuck up, and you go to heaven. Bob Peterson(Author of Pulp Fiction) (Thanx to Mike Morris for this one!)

Gee, I wish I could earn my living with that, like any other preacher!<G>

Karen and I took Lacee and Kim out for supper at the Pizza Hut. Kim had a coupon for two specialty pizzas for the price of one, so Karen and I got the supreme. It had been quite a while since I had a Pizza Hut supreme, and they've changed, but not for the better. Something that I can't define... but I was not impressed.

I grew up on Pizza Hut pizzas. For many years they had the only game in Topeka; I don't think that we had another pizza place 'til like 1970. And up until today, they set the gold standard, as far as I was concerned. I am dissappointed... another childhood myth gone. Pizza Hut no longer rules...

Also philosophically, I am against the use of mind-altering substances.

So how should I feel knowing that my kids are smoking dope?

Sad.

They are both over eighteen, and they both know that they control their own destinies. They are both atheistic in their beliefs. They are both way above average in intelligence.

They both remind me of me when I was their ages. Lost, looking for something.

I found whisky. That cost me twenty years of my life, maybe more.

I don't want them to waste any part of their young lives. Like most parents, I want them to be happy and to be able to overcome all obstacles that stand in the way of that happiness.

I fucked up; whisky cost me twenty years of my life. I don't want that to happen to my boys!

In order to do that, they need to not fuck up their minds. They need to be able not just to say no, but to say, "No, I plan on using my mind..." and to do just that.

I know that it is immoral (and incidentally, impossible) to control another person. And it is supremely stupid for a parent to try to live their kid's lives. So... what can be done? What should be done?

What I am doing is watching and waiting and nudging them in what I feel is the right direction. I can't tell them that they're wrong... they've read what I've wrote here. That would be the ultimate in hypocrisy. They know the risks, but, like all young people, it can't happen to them.

I love my boys. And I hate not being able to give them the ... proper guidance. I do not know what I would do if I was them, I only know what I did. I fucked up. I lost twenty years. I am trying to be both a good and a bad example for them. I don't know which will be the stronger... the good or the bad.