Nilknarf Journal

13 March 1997

10:57 I have finally conceded to Open Pages. I cannot keep up, and I will no longer try. I think that the online journal movement is wonderful, but I can't read everybody all of the time. I've been trying, and it doesn't work. Besides the time involved, I keep getting confused about who says what and even who I like to read from one day to the next. Ninety-nine journals hanging on the wall, ninety-nine journals a day, take one down and pass it around...

Nope, I can't do it. Heck, I don't have to do it, I've always just liked doing it. Then it became a slight burden, around 66. But I still kept up. Golly, you know, I just can't let people go unread, y'know... then 77, then 88... Nope, I can't do it anymore. Maybe I'm just getting old, or something.

But when I see the list... I wanna do it. And I try. And I can't remember who I read last session and who I didn't and who I liked and who I didn't so I'm just gonna check the list once a week and bookmark my favorites and not go there very much.

What I'm really doing here is admitting yet another addiction. One that I'm trying to get over, or at least reduce, anyway.

Lake Fork Trip Update: Les finally figgered out how to get to go, so there will be four of us and two boats. When I went out to Betsy's pond yesterday I noted that I need to do some major work on my tacklebox and tackle in general. I am not yet prepared for this trip in any way and there is only one week left to go. Sleep Update: I got a solid twelve hours last night. I only stayed up for an hour after I got home from Medassist. Speaking of Medassist, I got my wires crossed last week, I was supposed to be there and I thought that I wasn't. Luckily, someone covered for me. I really feel stupid about that.

Plans for this afternoon... include watching the KU basketball game with Karen and Kim at a local bar. Karen got off at 11:00 and so did Kim, just so they could watch the game with me... Well, it won't be a local bar, anyway, but Applebees, one of my favorite eating places. Karen just called, so I'm on my way over there...

More later.... Well, KU wound up looking really good, as expected, and Karen and Kim and I had a nice meal. I had Applebees' Bourbon Street Steak, which is always perfectly done, with onions and mushrooms. It was rather hard to watch the game, though, because once KU started running away with it, they would switch to other games in progress, which would be of more interest to non-Kansans. Boo! We said, but they still showed California.

I get the feeling that this journal is going downhill lately. I haven't been very enthusiastic about anything for a while, including writing here on a daily basis. I've been doing this a year come the 21st of March, and, although I still enjoy it, I don't seem to enjoy it as much as I once did. Maybe this upcoming vacation will be good for me and writing this journal... a little break.

Sometimes it seems like I'm stretching it even having an entry; lotsa days lately don't deserve an entry, but I just go ahead and do it anyway. Part of that is the fear of getting out of the habit and becoming a little irregular, then just frequent, then infrequent, then never. On the other hand, I've never put much thought into these entries, just kinda let them write themselves. They don't seem to do that anymore...

Busy day tomorrow, this whole weekend, in fact. Maybe I'll get another 12 hours sleep tonight and be entirely caught up on my sleep...