I'm getting worried. I lost MSIE 3.01 again last night. It started acting weird, then it would download the files but not display them. Kinda like what happened on the other computer. So I figgered that I had a virus. So I FTPed MSIE301 and then downloaded virusscan from McAffee. Ran it... and the system is clean! So I gotta find another reason. It might have something to do with MSIE301, or it might not. There are several other programs that I have DLed, such as moonphase.exe and CUTE FTP. And atomtime. One of them might be inadvertently doing this to me.

Whatever it is, I must find it and kill it. Quickly, and without regret.

Other news: I feel like shit. The cold that Karen gave me is still keeping her from talking, and it's keeping me from breathing. I've gone through a box of kleenex this morning (I got up at 03:00 after going to bed about 20:00 last night) and my head is still full of snot. I can't use a decongestant like normal people... it skyrockets my blood pressure. So I sit here, take ibuprophin and suffer. Not quietly, either. What's the point of suffering quietly? On the other hand, no one listens to me, anyway, even when there's someone here, which there isn't. Sympathy is really hard to come by sometimes.

Doing some work on previous pages, I found that in July 1996 I did an entry every day. I forgot that had happened.

There will be more later... check back.

Just got back from the drug store, I went to Medassist and got some scrips for an antibiotic and some good (with codeine) cough syrup. Yep, I've got the bronchitis again. I checked my records, the last time I had it was in March this year, so I'm doing pretty good, I guess.

Now that I have MSIE 3.01 going, my goddamn mail doesn't work. It will flash on the screen and then be gone. Did the virus check again. Did the scandisk again. Nothing. I guess I'll start removing programs one by one 'til it works. What a pain. Not something I need right now, I want to enjoy this new machine, not fight it!

Anyway, I have Exchange set up now as a mail client, and I hate it. Can't go to multiple people, for one thing. About half of my update people signed up again, and I can still send to them (no, I can't figger that out, either... I click on send new message, and it'll let me...) but I can't add anybody. That problem will get fixed tonight, though. Did I mention that I hate exchange? No? Yes, I did, it's right there...

I really hate being sick. I'm doing too much hating today. OK. So I love popcorn, I think I'll go pop some up in the microwave and get a can of pop and sit and watch all the Wonderful news about O.J. Sounds like a really stupid plan, huh. Well, I can't think of anything better to do. I can't type and eat popcorn, the keyboard gets all buttery and shit.

Got the popcorn eaten. Good for the first half-bag, but I had to force myself to eat the last half. I haven't eaten anything else today, knowing that it would come back up for sure. I've been coughing so much that my face is red from capillaries busting under the skin. I look like an old drunk.

Listening to NPR while I was going to get my prescription. A survivor of the hijacked plane that wrecked: "god was on my side". So god obviously didn't like 125 other people on that flight. How fucking stupid. Even stupider: If he had died, one of the others that survived would've said the same thing. god is with the lucky people. I'll never win the lottery, I guess.

The lottery is a tax on the mathematically challenged. I just had to throw that in there.

I got some email that had a tag line which I would quote if I could get to my email but I'll paraphrase since I can't: Blessed are those who can laugh at themselves, for they shall be unendingly amused. Thanx, Darlene! Although instead of blessed, I would say lucky. And I will, on my Philosophy page!

Karens' voice is somewhat better today, but she's still not really well. She's about three days ahead of me in this process, so I know what to look forward to. She didn't need the antibiotics, though... she doesn't smoke and get bronchitis when she gets a cold.

I sure am suffering from a lack of ambition today. Feeling bad does that to me. Usually, I just procrastinate, and don't feel badly about it. When I really want to get stuff done, though, stuff that I have to get done, and I don't feel like doing it... well, I just feel worse.

This computer (no, I haven't named it yet... and I probly won't...) will act like a speaker-phone. I haven't tried it out yet, though. I think that I will tonight. I need to call Tyler and JD and Mom and Dan. I haven't talked to anybody lately.

I'll be working thanxgiving, I'll get a free meal at the hospital. I'm glad that I wasn't working this last week, we had some icy roads and a couple of teenagers got killed and another is in bad shape at my hospital. I really hate it when those young kids come in... reminds me too much of mine and Karens. And their parents... losing a kid has to be the abso-fuckin'-lutely worst thing in the world. In these two wrecks, the ice was the problem... usually it's alcohol. Not that it makes any difference to the parents...

I have taken off almost everything but MS stuff from the hard disk... and it still doesn't work right! I just don't know what I need to do on this goddamned thing. I might just delete MSIE and NEWS and MAIL all and re-install them. Pain in the ass, it is.

Anyway, I'm gonna get this up and play for a while longer then go to bed. Up way too early today again.

Please don't try to get on my notify list right now! (Boy, that's a switch, ain't it?)