Saturday 02 Nov 1996

07:49

Still hangin' in there! No major temptations yet, I've been avoiding temptation consciously. Not hanging around with my smoking friends at all, I just wave to them when I see them and they wave back. None of them seem to mind, they all understand.

Busy night for me so far. This is good (for me). Keeps my mind where it should be... on work, not extracurricular activities such as smoking. I'm trying to keep not smoking on a conscious level, though. If I left it slip down to a subconscious level, it will probably come up and bite me in the ass, and I don't want that to happen.

Coughing a lot, too. Coughing up nasty brown stuff. Gotta get it all up and out, cleanse my lungs. That will probably take a couple of weeks to get that all done as the cilia in my lungs comes back to life. Hopefully, there's still life there. The cilia are part of the lung "skin" that moves foreign substances toward the exit... into the trachea, so that you can cough it up. Smoking numbs the cilia so that they don't work, and after a number of years of smoking, they don't all just spring right back.

I just finished reading the newspaper... I know that they have their excuses, but the story on the front page this morning is not very factual. Not at all factual. Really makes me wonder if anything that I read in the rag is factual.... Every time that I really know the facts about something, the paper prints something really different.

O'well, the funnies are consistently good.

I seem to be using a lot of energy spinning my wheels, 'cause I'm really tired. Not sitting down and smoking... I must've got a lot of rest while I was smoking...

I'm gaining weight already. Hallowe'en candy all over the hospital, and at home, too. The weight gain I'll worry about later. Right now, I concentrate on the not smoking. Then there will be a later.

Anyway, it's time for some sleeping now.

Again, I want to thank you all for your support!

Day 02 is history! No Smoke!

Thanx for being here!

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