Well, let's get right down to it. One paragraph in yesterday's journal... well, I wish I hadn't written it. I have never before felt that way about anything I've ever written. I was writing about feelings that I was having at the time, and I should have spent more time in reflection about those feelings. Well, I have now.

I got my feelings hurt. By something stupid, something that really doesn't matter to me most of the time. Something that doesn't matter to me right now. And when I wrote it down, it made me sound whiney, and I hate to sound whiney. The really bad thing is, I got a lot of feedback on it. I guess that's a good thing, but I feel like I fooled all of those people who wrote, because they thought I felt bad, and I did for a little while, but it was very temporary. But their emails made me feel a lot better, anyway.

One of them mentioned that we, as journalers, lack feedback. Well, I got feedback! But that was not my motive... I don't think so anyway. Another journaler Alethea, in Tracing, in her 9/4/96 entry, mentioned this too (quite coincidentally!) so maybe it's a cyclic thing, and it happens to us all... I sent her some hugs for the idea!

At any rate, I want to apologize for this outburst, and to let you know that I really, really appreciate your feedback on the subject!

OK, that's over and done with.

I got a good day's sleep yesterday, followed by a pleasant evening at Medassist and a pleasant night at the hospital. I was training a young female tech last night, she'll be doing PRN work on evenings and nights. A very pleasant and cute girl, about 22 years old. Sometimes I forget how much I miss being around people at work. I'm such a loner at work, being the only one in my department, and it's nice to have someone to work with.

However, I've been awake long enough! Tomorrow... tomorrow....